Or is it just me? I feel awkward in a crowd full of boys.. I imagine myself happy with my guy friends, being so open and humorous that I could vomit my happiness and call it a day but in reality, all I do is keep silent and stealing glances from the people around me and listening to their conversations and smile/laugh if something really funny/just a bit funny comes up. I’m so lame and boring! I hate my attitude.

I feel so chicken in these types of situations. And I don’t really like it. Why can’t I be much of a fair person towards my way of approaching people? Why can’t I just be myself when I’m around them just like when I’m around my close friends?

I don’t think they won’t like me.. I’m freakin’ awesome..
I’m just not that confident and I’m utterly scared.

#ohh.. just one of those days.. where I wished I was a boy instead.